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Yes its sinking in.. Rank 40, CSE 2015.The UPSC circle- the close and the beginning.

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Friday, October 30, 2015

Essays on Love(4)

The change we could not have imagined.
अन-चले रास्तों 
का कोई मोड़ हूँ; 
मुझको छू ले जिधर से तू 
मै कोई और हूँ। 

Tuesday, October 27, 2015

I am the universe.

You cut the universe into pieces 
held them together
like dimensions
with threads of gravity.

You cut the universe into pieces,
and they accelerate apart irreversibly,
like time does on this planet I live in,
in this city.

You cut the universe into pieces.
Tell me,
Does it tear you apart?
Or does it pass through you unhindered 
like neutrinos?
Whichever way it may try to reach you
it just wishes to know you complete-
your being,
your form,
your expanse,
to whom or what you belong.

You cut the universe into pieces
And it filled itself with darkness and light,
matter and antimatter,
fullness and nothingness.
So that it could let you in 
and keep there, your being
in all your expanse,
in whatever form you exist
and wherever you belong.

I am the universe.
And I know, 
from the darkness out there
You see me.
And You see me, not like you know me.
You see me as you love me.
And here,
from my light
I find you.
And I find you not as I love you.
I find you as I feel you 
with all my senses
and beyond them.
picture source https://www.pinterest.com/pin/491525746808039100/

Monday, October 26, 2015

The monochrome speaks in its silence.

My eyes burn
in longing, in friction.
They burn, but with 
their light marred.
Like hundreds of colors 
on this canvas,
once discovered, sprayed, built...
had been charred.
And, You say
I am, 
such a beautiful 

Saturday, October 24, 2015


लफ्ज़ ज़िंदा हुआ 
था तुझे जानकर 
उसने पूछा नहीं था तुझसे , 
बैर या प्यार कर..  
उसने चाहा था, तू बस
सच न इनकार कर.. 

गुनगुनाना या चीखना,
चुप न होना मगर 
चुप में खो देगा तू 
खुद को, और खो गया तू अगर 
लफ्ज़ गिर जाएगा उस पल 
टूटकर हारकर 

स्याही नहीं है बस 
बिखरे जो कागज़ पर 
और लगे जग को, जानता है तू इसे... 
तू कौन है जो यूँ? 
पैमानों में अपने, 
तोलता है, छानता है इसे... 

लफ्ज़ पूछे नहीं, 
बैर या प्यार कर 
लफ्ज़ चाहे तू बस, 
सच न इनकार कर 

समझे जो तू इसको, 
तेरा रहे तुझमे बन सुलझन 
समझे न तो, 
तू अधूरा रहे..
कुछ है मगर इसका,
जो रह जाएगा तेरे मन में,तेरा बन 
तू कहे न कहे...

गुनगुनाना या चीखना,
चुप न होना मगर 
चुप में खो देगा तू 
खुद को, और खो गया तू अगर 
लफ्ज़ गिर जाएगा उस पल 
टूटकर हारकर।

Wednesday, October 21, 2015

Orange skies - When happiness collides...

The lush forest grows, 
from moss to lichen,
to reach the sun.

The creepers, the epiphytes, the orchids-
all want its smile, 
the sunshine.

An emerald tree rises, high.
evading the boundaries of canopy
the forest had set for it.
It rises high and spreads its arms wide, 
to embrace the golden sun,
and its warmth,
to hug hard that burning sun
and ease it with its calm.

Their energies collide,
so does their happiness.
They don't.

The universe smiles back,
colouring the skies orange.
Photograph source: The crazy wonderful photographer philosopher friend.:) 

Tuesday, October 20, 2015

Essays on journey...

सच क्या है ,और क्या दर्पण-सा? 
है भी जो, है भी नहीं, भ्रम सा 
सागर सा नीला तो लगता है, 
पानी है या रेत सुलगता है?  
वो जो है भी नहीं 
है कहीं न कहीं 
बहता रहा है ...
इन धमनियों में,
जो जुनून-सा,
बनके मेरे सफर में...  

तू कौन है जो समंदर-सा? 
छाया है मुझपे, तू अम्बर-सा
सूरज-सा बातें तो करता है
हाँ डूबने से भी डरता है..
तू अकेला नहीं,
मुझमें तू कहीं,
रहता रहा है...
इन हौंसलों में
तू सुकून-सा,
बनके मेरे सफर में। 
picture source https://www.pinterest.com/pin/253327547766434060/

Monday, October 19, 2015

Your innocence and mine...

You say, Innocence-
meant being away from what 
we must not talk about,
what the society considers taboos
in and out.

You say innocence
meant being ignorant of evil,
untouched of the thoughts
of what you call sinful and devil.

And so you find,
my shyness, not your boldness
my thoughts, and not your words.

I see Innocence-
in the rawness of your thoughts and its instant expression,
like when your Mom touched you for the very first time
raw, unclothed, yet pristine that touch.

I see Innocence- 
in your words, their desperation and toil for peace,
like an infant crying in its genuine effort to cope with the turbulence
of its surroundings which disrupt its peace

And innocence 
is in your inquisitiveness, making efforts to know me more,
like a kid trying to reach out to another, 
in its search for a childhood friend.

Innocence is raw,
it is intrinsic.
It is not being ignorant of what you call evil or sinful,
or what must not be talked here.
It is when you let the evil or sinful touch you,
but not let it adhere.

So, are you innocent then?
Or were you searching in me, your lost innocence?

Thursday, October 15, 2015

The self which is bigger than the universe...

सब बदल सा गया, 
कागज़ के एक फ़र्द से।  
तू बड़ा है मगर, 
हाँ, तेरे दर्द से... 
picture source https://www.pinterest.com/pin/282530576595082308/

When its dark at home, go get some light...

It was dark at home.
and I went for a stroll.
Met these lights on my way,
and their stories.
I talked to one, it talked to me,
that night...
Like a ghost.
Mind to mind
eye to eye
light to light...

As I returned back,

I saw, the ghost came back home with me.
And, it lives right here,
in my mind.
In me.

Photo courtesy: Saurabh tupkar

Wednesday, October 14, 2015

On that planet in that galaxy...

वहाँ दिन खिलेगा; 
वहाँ रात होगी,
वहाँ हर डगर पर 
मुलाकात होगी।

वहाँ चाँद अम्बर 
के नीचे समंदर 
में आधा-सा छुपकर, 
बातें करेगा। 
वो आधी -सी बातें... 

वहाँ लफ्ज़ बिखरेंगे 
कागज़ से नभ पर, 
और पंछियों - से,
घरोंदों को अपने,  
लौटेंगे रातों को।   
वो आधी- सी रातें... 

वहाँ मैं नहीं मैं
वहाँ तुम नहीं तुम,
वहाँ कुछ न ज़्यादा 
वहाँ कुछ नहीं कम। 

कि जब वक़्त धागों- सा
जुड़ कर रुकेगा 
वहाँ रेत पर...
तेरी धड़कनों में 
संगीत मेरा,
पुकारेगा तुझको
तेरा नाम लेकर...

और चुप चाप छुपकर 
तेरी धड़कनों में, 
संगीत मेरा...
वो आधा- सा वादा 
कर देगा पूरा। 

picture source https://www.pinterest.com/pin/288019338642945452/

Saturday, October 10, 2015

The unfinished painting you grow into...

All I need is a piece of paper,
and some charcoal or sharpened graphite,
to paint you,
in words.
Monochrome, my painting.

Conscientious my efforts,
as I try to draw,
the edges of your unlived dreams,
which rustle as leaves,
as they talk to me
and stare innocently at the white sky...

And then it does not end.
For you never stop there.
You expand.
You grow
and you become the forest.

I stare at my fingers and the charcoal.

Essays on love (3)

The truth, the self, the essence
उसको छू दो जहाँ से, सच बदलता नहीं। 
तुझको देखो जिधर से, तू रहेगा वही। 

तू रोज़ सुबह को जगता जहाँ से है,
उससे बढ़के, 
रोज़ सोना मगर... 

तू साँझ में, शहरों की भीड़ की उलझन में, खुद को, 
यूँ न खोना मगर... 

रास्ता न मिले जो कहीं, इन मकानों के जंगलों में... 
और लगे कुछ है टूटा कहीं, इन दीवारों के हौंसलों में... 
गुम न होना मगर। 

There is this doctrine of syadvada in the jaina philosophy. There's this very famous example which explains it, that someone touched the foot of the elephant in dark, and called it a pole, touched its tail, and called it a rope, touched its trunk and called it a snake and so on.. The TRUTH however was 'the elephant' whom everyone touched, but no one saw, no one understood. 

Has this happened with you? And, if it has that does not and should not change the truth of your existence, no matter from wherever they touch it, no matter how they stack it, no matter how they try to change it

This world around, is doing that to you continuously. Like, the wind and the river and all these forces try to even out, to erode the mountain, but that does not change the mountain or its core. The mountain and the magma inside it preserves itself, its core, like truth, and the mountain rises. It rises despite every effort of being eroded and peeled out. It rises because of what it is- its core, its essence, its truth.

Preserve it- your self, your essence, the 'You'. And preserving it does not mean changelessness or stagnation. It only means evolution. 

May you grow, may you evolve each day, without regrets. So, when you go to sleep tonight, before you close your eyes, may you have risen an inch higher from the place you woke up this morning.

Don't let anyone in this world, at home or in this heartless crowd, in this crazy insane city, erode that 'You'. For it is precious. You are precious. 

And when, some evening, you can't find your way back to yourself, and you feel lost like a child in this concrete jungle of houses and homes. When you feel disowned, like a broken favourite toy, crushed by the colourful walls and their chains, just keep walking. But, don't lose the 'You', the essence. Keep walking with your head high and your heart believing.

Keep walking.

photograph source https://www.pinterest.com/pin/494973815272612540/

Wednesday, October 7, 2015

What brings me to war... and wars kill..

What disturbs peace?
There is a question.
"What lies between the illusion you see
and the real, you know?

Whom to trust?

The star or its light?
The light can guide you in dark.
But the star can be an illusion,
lost in space light years back.

Whom to believe?

The train or its whistle?
The whistle you hear loud,
the train might not just stop at your station,
even if it does, it might not be 'your' train."

What you see
may exist
may not exist.

What exists,
you may see,
you may not see.

The more important question then is-
What you want to see existing
and why?

Practical wisdom says, if you don't have the answers,
draw back
before the dam bursts
and cause destruction.

If you have the answers, go on...

The question is:
Do I have the answers?

That disturbs peace.
That brings me to war.
And wars kill.

picture source http://starwars.wikia.com/wiki/File:Ancient_Monument_TCG_by_Cynthie_Sheppard.png

Monday, October 5, 2015

Inside of You...

खो रहा है जो तू,
मिल रहा है कहीं। 
We must always be full,
never half.
For whenever in this world
 you are half,
still trying to smile through...
you are not just lying to the world,
but to the self,
to the'You'

When you are half,
you are lost in this world, 
and in its ceaseless clatter.

In another world somewhere,
you want to be found.
That world is here,
inside of You.
Its your parallel universe.
talking to you.

Smile through it
Become its light.
Its not just dark matter.

Sunday, October 4, 2015

Essays on love (2)

रुख बदल जाए न,इस हवा का कहीं... 
तेरे हाथों में सब,है भी ,है भी नहीं... 

तू आसमानों-सा,
क्या ढूंढ़ता खुद में है 
तुझमें तूफानों-सा,क्या बह रहा है जो 
तुझसे रोज़ लड़ता है 
फिर भी प्यार करता है। 

तेरा नहीं है क्या ?
तेरा कहीं है क्या ?

तू रौशनी-सा है; 
कहता क्यों है फिर, तुझमें है 

मुझमें जो तेरा है; 
तुझमें भी कहीं क्या है, 
photograph source https://www.pinterest.com/pin/464152305319738543/

Saturday, October 3, 2015

Essays on love....

प्यार बंदिश नहीं 
प्यार ख्वाहिश नहीं 
प्यार सौदा नहीं 
ज़िद या ओहदा नहीं। 

कुछ भी नहीं है 
प्यार बस एहसास है।  
तू रोज़ सुनता है इसे 
तेरी आवाज़ है...
तू अनसुना जिसे कर के,
ढूंढ़ता रहा जिसको...
तू छोड़ कर सौ रास्ते,
फिर आ मिला जिसको। 
तेरा प्यार तो तुझमे है, तेरे पास है। 

Thursday, October 1, 2015

Between the numerous silver pebbles...

Between those numerous words said,
or written, 
or sung to you in your sleep
and those umpteen words unsaid, 
never written, never sung
a nothingness
raw, untouched, naked
You can't hide it.
And you can't share it either.
You can't lie about it.
And you don't want to face its truth either.

That nothingness is the essence.

That nothingness is me.

These words I sing or shout 
are porous
like these pebbles.
But the pores connect
make me permeable.

If You call me your aquifer.
know, that it is this nothingness,
these gaps,these spaces
which make me what I am.
May be You have known them,
May be they are too narrow to reach.
May be You have known me
May be I am too far out of reach..
picture source https://www.pinterest.com/pin/491525746809456656/